Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Too Much

Day 18 – A picture of your biggest insecurity.

Why is this so difficult? I definitely have insecurities, though I'm not sure there's a specific picture of them, let alone my biggest.

I think though, that if I had to pinpoint just one, and a big one, it would have to be the insecurity of being "too much." I think of the book Captivating:

"I know I am not alone in this nagging sense of failing to measure up, a feeling of not being good enough as a woman. Every woman I’ve ever met feels it—something deeper than just the sense of failing at what she does. An underlying, gut feeling of failing at who she is. I am not enough, and I am too much at the same time. Not pretty enough, not thin enough, not kind enough, not gracious enough, not disciplined enough. But too emotional, too needy, too sensitive, too strong, too opinionated, too messy. The result is Shame, the universal companion of women. It haunts us, nipping at our heels, feeding on our deepest fear that we will end up abandoned and alone." (pp 6-7)

I know who I am and like who I am, but at times, there is a haunting echo in my head of being too much. Too overwhelming. Too aggressive. Too indecisive.

Thank you, Jesus, for knowing me fully and loving me. Thank you, amazing family and friends who reassure and encourage me.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

New Adventures

Day 17 – A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

My job is wonderful and there are ups and downs and excitements...feast or famine in the work load. Definitely things there that have impacted life recently as I ride the wave of ministry and people.

But the biggest thing by far that has changed the flow of normalcy recently is this new and budding relationship with my man. It has altered my weekends, it has me considering someone else as I plan, it has impacted the way I think.

 It has been exciting, it has been deep, challenging, so fun. Yes, it...or should I say, HE, has made a huge impact on my life recently. So here's a toast to what could be!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Through The Fire

I'm really bad at this every day blog thing. It has evened out to about once a week, but I am really going to try to plow through the rest of this picture challenge! Woo!

Day 16 – A picture of someone who inspires you.

Now, this isn't because she's one of the few people who I know will read this, but she's the person who over and over again comes to mind with this prompt. There are people who inspire me with their drive and talent, with things they accomplish, but I think it's safe to say that when someone has those things and has walked through the valley of the shadow of death, there is depth and wisdom and insight beyond an ordinary life.

Jessi, you inspire me! (Read about her family's story and of their little superman, Jack, who was born between 23 and 24 weeks.)

I dug back into my photos and found these photos. One of our freshman year of college and one from when Jessi was about to get married and I had the great privilege of being "most holy" maid of honor. ;) 

Jessi, you are a treasured friend and an amazing woman. Truly, an inspiration. Love you!